Why should He trust you?

It has been a while since I have written anything, over a month and I must admit, I am ashamed of myself yes I said it. I am also sorry, no excuses, only apologies. In the light of this, or under the shadow as the case may be, falls my post.

We talk about the grace of God, His mercies, his loving kindness amongst many other things and we talk about our absolute faith and confidence in Him. I read a scripture today Psalm 78 and in it the writer talked about the stubbornness of the people of Israel, quite a read if you ask me. However, I read the post today and I asked myself, why should God trust me? What can I say that he has not heard before? Promises to abstain from sin, to follow him with all my heart, if you have read my post -church without walls, then you see that most times I restrict to particular days and hours of my life, He does not even have full access.

How can He trust me to keep my word and my promises to Him? I have not seen the Red Sea parted, I have not tasted manna, I haven’t spent up to 24 hours a day in his presence and I most definetely haven’t done it 24/7. The Israelites did and yet they still failed Him repeatedly. In that light, who am I?

"But then they would flatter him with their mouths, lying to him with their tongues; their hearts were not loyal to him, they were not faithful to his covenant. Yet he was merciful; he forgave their iniquities and did not destroy them. Time after time he restrained his anger and did not stir up his full wrath. He remembered that they were but flesh, a passing breeze that does not return."- Psalm 78, 36-39

We all know the drill, Sunday of praise worship and requests to God, every morning when we remember, more praise, worship and more requests, maybe Wednesday service maybe some other time spent in church. In between those times, struggling hard not to go astray and in most cases failing miserably, I wonder how can He trust me. Obedience is better than sacrifice, you sacrifice your time go to church with lying lips promising obedience and faithfulness which most times we do not keep, I won’t even begin to talk of tithes and offerings, sacrifices that do not matter if obedience is not first and foremost in our hearts and lives.

A loyal heart, faithful to His promise, the promise today of salvation, a Son sent to die that whoever believes would not perish but have everlasting life. Hearts loyal day in day out, even in secret places like Daniel, Shedrach, Meshach and Abednego. Faithful and loyal enough like Job 13:15 to say Yet he slay me, still will I serve Him.

You want to know a sacrifice that will move the heart of God, here it is. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit and a broken and contrite heart. O God, you will not despise, a heart broken in truth.