Sometimes we claim to move on, but sometimes we leave our hearts behind. be careful when you look back, remember Lot's wifeThe opportunity it comes but once. Whether it be once in a lifetime, a decade or a year, a month or a week, a day, an hour or even in a second. There comes a time when the choice you make can determine how the rest of your life, year, month, week or day can become. I am not talking of those life changing moments where the big contract shows up, or the big job, or the addition to your home. I am talking about the moment when you choose to look back to the past, that moment when you choose to look back at what you have left behind. That point where you don't just look back but begin to miss or long for the things you rightly left behind.
Most times we claim we have moved on, we say things are fine and well, but the truth is sometimes we leave our hearts behind, we leave something behind that makes us look back. A something (if I may add) that makes looking back seem entirely worth it.
Breaking up a relationship for the right reasons but missing it every now and then?
Walking out in a compromising situation but missing its security?
Leaving company you used to keep to prevent introduction to vices you can't handle? But oh its Friday night and don't you just long for their company a lil' bit?
There are countless examples I am sure apply to us in our different areas in life. You know best, its your life just like I know best about mine.
We all talk about withdrawing a little bit at a time but a lot of times, the things we desire or we claim to want turns it all on its head. Today I ask, which is more important? The work of your hands or the desires of your heart? I say this now, with a better understanding of what it may truly mean, I am saying it now with a slightly different perspective. What I have, what you have right now, who you are, who I am right now matters more than who you were or who you are going to be. I am a sinner (now), I was a happy Christian two days ago, but right now, I HAVE to repent. I may be a happier Christian tomorrow, I may be worse off, but right now I need to repent. I could use many different examples, but I will use just one, me.
I am a father, the father of a five year old child I hardly ever see. Not because I don't want to, but because time, distance and conditions (in the past) made it more convenient to stay away from him.
I am single and many times truly, I think and I wish I had a wife to be at least, I wish I had a baby girl. That however has not happened yet, it is my heart's desire. While many would say work towards it, the truth is I have a child from the works of my hands, it is what I have now. So this year and quite recently, I have decided that this is what matters to me, not a wife to be, or a daughter to be, but a father at the moment.
I know who I am, I know what I have even better I have learned to understand God's gift to me, I know where I have been and I understand there is still a long journey ahead, so I start looking ahead, focused on the now, focused on the works of my hand living in the present, God's gift to my life.
Not the wife or the family I could have, but the family I have at the moment, not looking down on the colleagues I have at the moment because of the job I am looking towards, there is a long list, add to it as you please.
Remember these two things however;
- The only time you have is now, it is the only time you have to see what IS important, use it wisely
- if He can clothe the birds of the air and the flower of the field, how much more a child of His? Is anything too difficult for Him? Eye has not seen, ears have not heard about what He has prepared for you, only if you believe NOW, only if you live for Him, NOW.
Now is the appointed time, now is the day of judgment.
