Re: A silent cry

So much to say, but no words to describe it, so much feelings and no way to hide it. You are not alone, wherever you are, God sees, He knows, He cries with you, He loves you just as you are, come and receive rest, peace and love. If you have received it, live the life God wants you to live, live for your neighbor.

You sing, you praise,
You pray, you fast
You preach, touching lifes,
In tongues or not,
You are my brother/sister.
You are my life,

You lie, you steal,
Take pills? Yes I know the feeling,
Weed? Or speed?
All for a temporary high,
You drink? To drown your sorrows,
To drown the pain you feel,
Or just for fun,
You are my brother,
You are my life,

Feeling down, weary?
Hurting from a loss?
Loved one?, relationship? Or job?
So messed up that you can't face anyone?
Abused, confused,
Or just tired and wanting to break all the rules,
You are not alone, we are so many like you,
You are my brother
You are my life

We live so caught up with our problems,
That we fail to see the obvious before us,
We were born, without our knowledge,
We were born helpless,
We were born by someone who toiled,
All night sometimes, just so we could live.
Lives may have been lost just to bring you to this world,
Lives may have been lost just to make sure you survived,
Survive you did, here you stand.
You are my brother,
You are my life,

Others have lived before us,
Others have gone through what we go through
Some share, some don't
Examples to learn from, which most times we don't.
One lived to die for us,
One came sent down to die for us,
Sent by His father, to die that we might live.
That we might be born anew, to start afresh,
He is our father,
We are His Life,
He loves us.

No matter where you are,
No matter where you have been,
No rules, no commands,
Not by force but by choice,
Just come as you are,
Come as you will,
But choose to come.
He looks at the heart,
He sees your pain,
He sees the tears,
Just come,
He is our Father,
We are His life,
He loves us.

Come to me all who are burdened and heavy laden,
Come to me and receive rest.
Though your sins be as scarlet,
They shall be as white as snow.
Believe and be saved,
Believe and be born again,
Not by your effort, not by your might,
Like it was when you were born,
The pain, the labour, the suffering and the life,
It has all been done,
It is finished he said.
Believe and be born again,
You are my brother, You are my life,
God loves us all.



Love your neighbour as yourself, touch a life today by the life you live.
Show somebody some love. They need it more than they show it.

A silent cry

You can't tell me how I feel until you have walked in my shoes,
I can't tell you how I feel because I don't know you,
YOu can't walk in my shoes unless you love me,
You can't love me unless you know me,
You can't know me unless you have fellowship with me,
T o be my friend, my companion, my brother.

How can you tell me God loves me when you don't?
How can you tell me He cares when you don't?
You walk past me each day,
Sit by me, smile at me,
Your hi's you chat little nothings at me,
No you don't know me.

How can you encourage me if you don't me?
How do you even know what to tell me
When you don't know what I feel?
You keep telling me the wrong things, thinking you are encouraging me,
You are not, and that is because you don't know me.

I ain't looking for a smile, I need a hug,
I ain't looking for encouragement, I need warmth,
I ain't looking for scriptures, I need you to be there for me,
To hear the cry of my heart.
Not for you to cry for me, but with me.

Money don't mean anything to me,
It comes and goes like everything in life.
Fellowship does because when nothing goes right,
The friendship does,
The fellowship does and its all I need.

John 3:16

There is a passage in the bible, maybe the most famous of all bible passages in the bible John 3: 16 and it says "For God so loved the world that He gave his only Son that whosoever believeth in him should not perish but have eternal life"
A lot of times we do things as christians, that we feel terrible about, we do things that make our conscience prick us so bad that we have a hard time getting out of it, not to encourage sin but then if your conscience does hurt you and you do repent then yeah God has forgiven you, Please go and sin no more. Now that is hard for some of us, because we keep going over some particular sins over and over again. I have this to say, a simple word for you, a simple word for me.

For God so loved the world, this was a world He created, a people He created in his own image and in Genesis 1, He looked down on the earth and was glad for he saw that it was good.

That He gave his only Son, a lot of times this week especially, I have felt really down, really sad, wondered if I was deserving of God's love, but then looking at this passage today, these words came to me, He gave his only son, after looking down at a world, a wicked world, the Sodom's and Gommorah's, the Tyre's and Sidon's, the Herod's killing innocent children, a world of wickedness, a world He had destroyed before for the same set of sins, and God looked down and rather than destroy the world a second time, and go back on his word, He gave us life, in the form of His only son.
If you have commited murder, He gave His only Son,
Fornication, adultery, masturbation, pornography, He gave his only Son,
Drunkenness, drugs, abortions, He gave His only Son,
Poor in spirit, broken hearted, mourning, in pain, He gave his only Son,
It don't matter what u did, cos it has been done before and God still sent His Son, but as always with God, it boils down to choice and this is where we all come in. God loves you, He loves you so much that He opted to give you life where He could have given you death, he opted to send His Son, what more can we ask for.
Whosoever believes in Him shall have everlasting life, not whosoever is pure in heart, not whosoever heals the sick, preaches the gospel, or is perfect, not whosoever obeys all the laws of God, but whosever believes in Him.
We live in a world today, where God is most times a second option, a second choice our fall back plan in times where everything goes wrong and if u feel today as you remember His death and the reason behind it, that your living a life worthy of the reason, then by all means live on. It dont take God's love away from you one bit.
Peter denied God three times in one night, Jesus died on the cross for him,
the Jews crucified Jesus, mocked Him and did all they did, Jesus died for them as well
the roman soldiers that tortured Him, He died for them all,
the soldiers that killed all the little children at the time of Jesus birth, Jesus died for them as well.
He died for you too... Your choice, your decision, your purpose. He loves you.

Happy Easter

Your choice: Your fellowship

It has been said that the Romans were the greatest army in their time and it is said that it was because the soldiers were able to fight as a unit. That and their ability to build roads gave them success. In the last world cup, Italy won not because they had the best players but because they had the best team. Am not here to talk about roads or football. Am here to talk about fellowship.
Fellowship can be defined as a collection of people who share the same beliefs, ideas who come together to talk about experiences, ideals, interests, to encourage each other. At the moment looking around at us,me and you, more especially me, I can sincerely say that the fellowship bit is quite difficult to come by. Not because the people are not there but because most times we are either not trusting enough to share our hearts with people, sometimes because we haven't seen people like minded as we are, sometimes we have tried and failed to get along with people and have felt awkward or left out because we don't feel like we can match up to their expectations. A lot of times we leave all the things we used to do to embrace a new life with Christ and we find out the hard truth, like Paul we find out that fellow christians look at us with the same eye they looked at us with a while back, not trusting and not being open, we can't go back to things of old because our spirit does not agree with them and we find ourselves drifting, a lot of times we drift back to things we used to do before in some cases we take root and begin to grow.
When I talk about fellowship, I am not talking about my best friend, or my drinking buddy, I ain't talking about my father or my mother, not my sister or my brother, not the guy I see on the street everyday that i chat with. When I talk about fellowship:

• I am talking about the original reason Eve was created for Adam: so that he would not be alone, as a companion.
• I am talking of the vows made on a wedding day which are said so many times that they become automatic to us.
• I am talking about the relationship David and Jonathan had back in their day, the relationship Daniel, Shedrach, Meshach and Abednego had to stay strong, when everyone else was eating food sacrificed to idols.
• I am talking of what Elijah yearned for in the wilderness when he asked God to take his life, before God showed him 3000 more people who had the same belief with him
• I am talking of what Jesus was talking about when he looked at his disciples after he was told his family was around.
• I am talking about what the disciples were doing when the Holy Spirit came down on them and they started speaking in tongues
• Paul and Silas singing and praying in prison.

This might not make sense but then here it is, when you were little, your parents sent you out to school to learn with people like you, not because you can't learn on your own(there is home schooling) but because you would be around people like you, to learn faster, to learn quicker and more importantly to give u an environment where you can grow.
If you have made the choice like I have to serve God and God alone, most importantly if you have made this choice recently or even a while ago, if like me you are going through things in life you find difficult to share, difficult to talk about, because of trust issues, because you tried and nobody understood, or you tried and it seems like you are the only one with issues then you are in the wrong place. I am not talking about Alcoholics Anonymous, I am talking about a place where you are not scared to voice out how you feel, not just in a place where you can receive advice or receive encouragement, but a place where u feel needed, a place where you feel you count, a place where you know the people with you are going through struggles like you.
This all seems so blurry at the moment, it seems like it is not making sense, I feel like i should wait a little more so I could structure my thoughts more properly but then, I was in Cardiff yesterday and as I was leaving I saw something that got to me; an old woman saying goodbye to her daughter. It wasn't the goodbye that struck me but the look in the old woman's eyes after her daughter got on the bus, it struck me because it is a look I have seen in my eyes so many times, the look of loneliness that we try so hard to mask, we try so hard to hide. If this message touches you in anyway then it is for you. If not then I thank God for your life.
Two things matter most in our lives as a christian, our fellowship with God, and our fellowship with man, summarized so properly by the savior when he spoke of the two greatest commands, "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul and might and you shall love your neighbour as yourself".
If you have ever felt alone, felt unneeded, felt like no one cared about you, look at the man/woman laughing out there, the people all around you, they feel the same too, you are not alone, find your fellowship today with your Father first and then your neighbour.

A lot of times I hear that it is a single race this christian race of ours, so we make it out that it is how we get to heaven that counts. By we I mean individually, and fine I agree with that but then if we are to love our neighbour as ourselves that makes you as important as I am, and that makes me as important as I am. Recently I wondered as well why it is only when guest preachers come to our churches that we are willing to come out and confess to things that we wouldn't confess to normally, why we are more willing to talk about our flaws and faults with strangers.

I hope this touches a heart out there, its a note i wrote a while ago, something i felt, something I had been thinking for a long time now.

LONELINESS

A word often felt but much denied,
A desire for company,
A need to let out emotions,
A hug, a kind word,
Maybe just 5 minutes of your time.

The hearts cry for warmth,
warmth inflowing not outflowing,
flowing in from a friend, a loved one,
Oh just 4 minutes of your time.

We search so long, so far, so wide,
for someone to share our deepest fears,
our desires our needs.
Searching but not finding,
seeking but not feeling
reaching out but not receiving
All i need is 3 minutes.

How on earth does it go on,
How does the mind keep on keeping on,
This search wears me out,
Its tearing me down,
Dont know how much I can take,
All i need is 2 minutes.

Time is running out,
the heart turns cold and starts to slow,
all hope slowly fading out,
cos no one seems to know,
How much the heart needs to know
the warmth, the care from a friendly heart to glow..
All i needed was a minute.
To open up my heart, to show how I feel,
to know what i feel.
A minute now gone,
Heart fading away,
mind going numb,
Void of all feeling,
All dats left is loneliness...

I am slowly getting to a point where I get so tired of living this way, where I feel no one understands, where I feel like I am the only one with problems, where I just want to stop trying and just give up, each time I hold on for just one more day, I pray to God for strength to keep going on.

You are not alone. Be blessed and bless others. God loves you more than I do.